Life these days is like one IOU after the other

Life's taken a bend in the road since my last post. It's been a little over a month since I've gone from breezing through stress-free with my work-sleep-eat-live schedule to my current school-work-sleep-eat-live one. Notice the longer named day sequence I follow now. Up until this past Friday I thought that this was a realistically impossible feat to accomplish, considering I'm a 14-credit student, work 20+ hours a week, practice at least once a week with my band, and I still need time for studying, family, my girlfriend, and breathing. For the past first two weeks of class I freak out at least 23 times a day wondering how to manage all my time appropriately into all of my life.

Then an old friend from elementary school came in to eat in. We talked about school mostly. He works 30+ hours on top of going to school full-time at DeVry. I don't remember what he does; DeVry isn't a difficult school. Regardless, I took from our talk the idea that I have a lot more time on my hands to do what I need - that I can and should stop complaining about not having enough time and making excuses. I need to make time - in a literal and figurative sense. I know it can be done. Now, I just have to do it.

The exception to this motivation is the weekend of a great snow fall. Today I handled my family and significant other obligations, but little any other "duties." I shoveled a good portion of the snow around my house and my mother's apartment building. After, I spent my entire evening with my girlfriend and her family. Idk how but I had a better time today than I thought I did. I believe this great saturday is like a great ...

Now, it's over a ten hours since I started this post. My mind drifted over to my bed and I woke up at 7 wondering, "How did I end up on my bed AND on top of my sheets?"

Those hours of sleep change not how I felt last night. I still feel overwhelmed over my busy life, and I still feel ashamed of my failure to really keep up with it properly. Today, though, with the bright snow reflecting the bright rays of the morning sun, I am more motivated than before to man-up and do life the right way (or at least what I can call right for now).